In Love with Love...again!

dedicated to all little hearts which beat together....

FICTION:

I didn't know what had happened to me. My mind was as if in some other world, a world where there were only two people, a world where there were only white clouds every where, sweet breeze to caress her and only the bright moon to watch us. I don't know how to define cloud nine but I knew i had almost taken it on lease, i was staying there for a long time now. I'll never know where i was, all i know is that i was in love, with love.

"Wise men say, only fools rush in,
but i can't help, falling in love with you..."

Every day she was my morning, she was my day and at night she was my dream. The moment she came in front of me, my eyes wanted to freeze that frame and never let it go off my mind, they always looked through all those files and directories in my brain's hard disk and the whole day my mind scanned through those fotos my eyes had taken each time I saw her, each time the breeze made those strands of hair fall on to her face, every time she moved them back to their place and those strands as if on my command came back to that face to make her smile, my eyes kept on clicking lyk a high speed high definition camera and stored each of those images into a secured locker in my heart mind and soul. Even God wont count the number of times I've went inside that secured locker and returned happier than ever, every time i returned I was in love again...

After all that was going on inside my heart, I had to tell her what I felt, I had to make her know that my heart beat doubled every time she smiled, every time I accidentally touched her hand and every time she looked at me with those beautiful little eyes. I wanted to tell her that I never wanted her to leave from in front of me, I wanted to tell her that she was stuck in my heart and was inside every drop of blood it pumped through my body. I wanted to tell her that I loved her, I wanted her to know...

"I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you"

She was right in front of me, holding a cup of icecream, so was I but i really don't remember what icecream it was, how it tasted, how much it cost, flavour, anything!! The only thing I could see was her and the only thing that was going through my mind was how should i say it to her. Never have i ever been so much tensed in my life that I was seeing my hands shiver, my lips numb, my eyes blank! The cup of icecream had no more ice, just cream for i was just mixing all that up with the spoon and never noticed that she was looking at me and my hands all the time, she had seen my hands shiver and saw that i was nervous. she asked me what happened, I couldn't say one damn word. All I did was look at her as my heart was pounding (became a train's engine...again!), I had said it so many times in my dreams, so many times in my thoughts, I had said it so easily. I have no idea why but I could not say a word, not a single word. And After a long pause i answered that i wanted to ask her something, but couldn't answer her next question," WHAT?"

I was saying it inside me, my eyes said it, my hands said it, my heart said it, my mind yelled it, but my lips were mum. I gathered all my courage, calmed myself, and with all my energy only could say, " Bubble, Will you be with me.?" I knew I had not completed but the pause was something I couldn't control. I tried again as I saw her look at me curiously with those little eyes looking straight into mine,

"Bubble, will you be with me?.......Forever?"
I didn't know if she understood what i wanted to say, I didn't know if she had understood how much i wanted her, how much i loved her, how it felt when she was near, how happy I was the whole day when she was with me even even for a minute, for all she did was look at me with her little unblinking eyes. I knew my lips were numb, they had almost sealed themselves shut in utter fear and nerves. I took a piece of paper napkin, and with a little pen wrote what just 2 lines from the song which was played for all this time inside me. I could barely manage two , I wrote:

"Shall I stay, would it be a sin,
If i cant help, falling in love with you..."

She took it from me and saw it, I don't know if she had read it at all coz i saw her look into me almost instantaneously the moment she looked into that piece of paper. There was something I saw in those eyes, those eyes were a little moist, I could feel something i hadn't till now, I felt her nervous, and all we were doing was looking into each others eyes as if they spoke for themselves, as if they had promised each other long back, I was simply looking into her eyes but so was she.!!

And after a much much longer pause, she took that pen from my hand and with shivering hands she wrote two lines beneath mine,

"take my hand, take my whole life too,
for i cant help, falling in love with you.."