Sunday, May 30, 2010

Feeling Hot Hot Hot!!

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My friend Anushree just returned from her Himalayan expedition. She was in the mountain ranges for nearly 10 days, playing in the snow, walking on the ice, and bearing the chilling wind that would flow in the region and would literally freeze their noses. The temperature was always near zero and they had no scope for electricity and so had to light fires wherever they went in order to keep themselves warm. They had to trek for 4 to 5 hours at a stretch and that was indeed tiring, very tiring! At every stage there were people who could not bear the intensity of the trek and backed out to go home. And for all this time, when she was walking on the rocks trembling on their edges and adjusting the heavy baggage at every step- ready to eat whatever she could lay her hands on -listening to stories of people dying in the snow, I was.....

....I was opening the fridge for the 14th time in 3 hours, to get the cold water bottle and it felt as if the bottle just refused to get cold. For which i then open the freezer-the only place where I've felt real snow- only to realize that water does not freeze in an hour! And when you finally get some cold water, the only thing i felt was some sleep in front of the cooler, I jump on to the couch, feel the air hit my my body and then i realize.....the cooler had run out of water. It was pumping in super heated air and it felt as if i was standing on the wrong side of an exhaust!! With a lot of frustration and anger, when i fill in the water in the cooler's tank which always refuses to be full quickly and justt when the tank is full, there comes a call,"abey apna result agaya!! college jaana hai!!"
And from home I had to go on a trek...

A trek (literally), to college, the only difference being while Anushree was at around 8 degree Celsius in the sun, I just had to add a 4 to it, a 4 before the 8 which made it a god damn 48 deg !!!! And trust me, it kills!!! The moment i stepped outside, i felt a chill through my spine, which was perhaps the last chill i felt for the day!! Coz the moment later i was surrounded by a wave of something, something god damn hot!!! It moves through the face, through your eyes, your nose,through the ears and reaches your brain and simply boils it like water! While Anushree was siting around a fire trying to warm her hands and legs, I felt my hands and legs to have caught fire, man they were really on fire!!! While Anushree was looking at water get frozen in no time, I too did, the only difference being I was watching the water disappear in no time, god it was HOT HOT HOT!

After the terrible trek to college, the moment i reached home, i realized how important chappals were!! When Anushree would've been walking on chilling ice under her feet, I felt i was walking on the Sun, the blistering heat would've melted me completely had i stayed there for some more time bare footed. And after the great great trek , i had finally reached my igloo. I justt loved the sight of the cooler buzzing. I opened the door, rushed inside, opened the fridge, and i can't explain my happiness when i saw a chilled ice packet in the freezer (my Himalayas), I ate that ice with all my love and each sound of the crumbling ice was a relief. And after all the terrible heat that i had just faced, after all the news of people dying in the sun, all the heat that almost melted me out, all the sweat that flowed like tap water, all the energy that drained out as if in a sink, all that i saw was the couch, all that i heard was the cooler's buzz, all that i knew was that the cooler's tank was full, and when with a feeling that all my troubles were about to get over, i walked slowly to my couch, the cool air hitting my face gently, i lay down on the couch with all my relief, i closed my eyes ready to dream.......AUR LINE GAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

I Sell-Fish

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am trying to see if plain repetition of words i HATE most can change me to become the meaning of those words...


This has been tried on me for a long time, let me see if it works...apologies.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

As Loud as Silence...

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Past few weeks I have found a lot of peace in silence. I am falling in love with it. The silence which let all bad stay at bay, and let in only the stuff you want to hear. Silence which was louder than anything. I still cant stop writing about the silent world I am living in. I was watching Independence Day and saw that the Aliens were moving whole of their civilization from one planet to other. For a second, just for a second I thought if we humans could do that. That one second was silence. The very next second I had the answer. And the very next second was again...silence.

The Answer was just a few channels away. People like Bin Laden would plant a bomb in the ship we all move in. People like George Bush would not allow Muslims in it. People like Dawood Ibrahim would kill Indians in there. People like John F Kennedy would be shot. People like Karkare would be killed. And in the end, goats like Kasab will be hanged. All that would be left to take to the other planet would be silence.

"Darkness coming around,
And everybody fight with the brother.
Every body wants control,
Don't hesitate to kill one another."


I look for other channels, and I don't find anything new. Even Astha channel!! God seems to be readily available there as if for sale!! I enjoyed it for some time seeing the way he was saying stuffs, and when the camera panned, i saw a crowd all siting and listening....in silence. The Long haired man (as they all are!) was called a god's messenger and all he said was considered by people as God's words. For a second, just for a second a thought ran through my mind silently...Shri Rama, Shiva, Buddha, Krishna, Jesus, Allah...So many gods, so many forms, so many halos, yet one message. The very next second came another thought...in silence... So many names, so many texts, so many followers, so many people yet so much hatred. No matter how much the God man says, no matter how many god men speak, the world was going to be just listening to it...in silence. So God :

"Come back as Jesus
Come back and save the world,
Bless all the future of every boy and girl,
Come back as Rama,
Forgive us for what we've done,
Come back as Allah,
Come back as anyone."


My world has indeed broken up, shattered to pieces, pieces called caste, religion, color. The world has split into continents, continents into countries, countries to states, states to cities, cities to people and people into religions, religions into castes. Why.??? I may never know, all that i can do now is switch off the TV and dream of a world for all people, a world where people have one religion...Humanity. A world which is not split to pieces, world with no castes, no hatred, a world which could move from one planet to other with everyone on board. Till then all i have with me is one thing uniform across the continents, uniform in all religions, present in all gods, across all countries, the thing I've fallen in love with... silence.