In Love with Love...

Dedicated to my brother Paddy who finally got married to his love...


Fiction:


I was 19. In an age where blood is just that red wine flowing inside you I realized that how strong that red wine could get, how dangerous that hangover could be, and that feeling when you can actually feel that bloody wine in your heart. I will never find the right words to express what that day was or how that day felt, in the end the only word closest to that feeling would be " ephemeral ".

I was about to meet my college friend in a cofee cafe, and as always i was getting late. I rushed ahead of all the traffic cutting through all the small little gaps i found in the way through and could not think of looking back at angry faces in those driver seats of the cars I missed by a whisker. Who cares, My red wine was being pumped at full force. I did manage to reach on time though, but things were about to change forever. I found two girls walking towards me, one was the fat girl i was with in college but the other i could not recognize at that distance. And it was that other girl who changed my years to come, the girl who became my red wine.

As they came closer i felt i knew that face, I had seen that face before, pretty well. It was a face that used to sit with me, fight with me, share secrets with me, play with me, a face which was a friend of me, a very very good friend of me, she was almost a part of me, the girl i called Bubble. And she knew what was in me.
Those eyes were still the same, those hair just became more open and the wind did the rest, made it look superb. She had not changed much in the 5yrs since i last said bye to her....

...but I think I had changed pretty much since then, coz my heart never pumped that hard 5yrs back and it was beating lyk a drum inside me. As she walked towards me, with every step she took i felt a tremor inside my heart and i could feel something being pumped up my spine, I unknowingly blinked like anything, I didn't know my mouth was open, my eye brows dead, my hands numb. She moved closer and the hair on my hands stood up as i watched the wind play with her beautiful hair and bring a few strands on to her face. The whole world was on pause for me and i wanted to play that part again again and again as she slowly moved those strands back to their place. As she walked , her ear rings moved in sync and i didn't know my head was starting to tilt to see that face more. The Pumping drum inside me was now an engine on fire as she moved closer and when she was really standing in front of me, it stopped.

Those eyes were looking at me, but mine were staring! The same girl whom i missed most when she left school was now standing in front of me, looking into my eyes. Those eyes looked in silence while mine were blaring lyk loud speakers. Those small little eyes looked like twin gems shining in dawn's sunlight and as she smiled at me as i realized how much my head was tilted. Those small little lips which were almost baby pink and looked no less beautiful than two small little flower buds which were slowly ready to blossom. Those flower buds slowly separated and with a mild little voice came two words,"HI". The whole world seemed to have stopped at a standstill and I could not see anything else but her in front of me, so much is that feeling even today that i still forget that "Hi" is just one word!!! With slight embarrassment at my tilted head,I could only manage a "hi!". But there was so much more i wanted to say, so many more lines which were flowing through my heart, so many more stories i wanted to share...but all i could do was look at her in utter silence.

That meeting lasted only a few minutes as she left for home. But that whole episode was played inside me at least a thousand times by the time I reached home. She was all over me and the moment I started thinking again my head started to tilt again and my heart became sivamani's drums..singing songs which i had never heard before..
" Oh where would i be...
without this joy inside of me
it makes me want to come alive.
It makes me want to fly into the sky..."

The world seemed to have changed for me, the whole day my mind was full of her, those memories which lay in an old corner of my heart all seemed to have cleaned themselves up and in no time my heart felt lyk a festival and was already celebrating for it was decorated like never before. All of a sudden i could hear the small little sparrows chirp, i could hear a small baby laugh, i could smell roses near me, i felt i was weightless, there was something happening inside me and was spreading lyk wildfire..

" Oh where would be...
if i could tie you next to me,
Oh where would i be..
Oh where..."


I think i was in love...and with that little pain in my neck, I knew i had 'fallen' in love.